For what it's worth....
By your description, sounds like you have put some serious expectations on your practice sessions. Might even be unrealistic expectations.
Also sounds like you're putting a lot of value in what you think others think about you or how you shoot.
How you shoot is no determination on you as a person or your purpose in life.
Archery does not define a person.
Just like a hot rod or fast car does not make a big man.
If thinking about going to the range brings on some anxiety, you might be putting way too much into it.
You are putting too much thought into what others think of you.
Think about this for a minute...
You are sitting in a park and a few college age kids are tossing a Frisbee around. One kid can really get it right to the other guy and he doesn't ever have to chase it. Whereas the other guy can't throw that thing to save his life and his receiver has to chase it hard every time and usually picks it off the ground. So you see 3 guys of various skill levels. Do you think any of them think less of the less skilled thrower as a person?
Would you suspect any of them think they are a better person because they throw the Frisbee flawlessly every time?
Now, what would you think if you saw the flawless thrower giving the other 2 guys some real flack because they couldn't throw as well as he could?
Maybe you would say to yourself, "what an egotistical jerk."
He might be a decent at throwing a Frisbee, but I bet neither one of those guys goes to sleep thinking about that Frisbee. It's just a pass time. A way to relax, get out and have some fun.
I don't know the reason for when or why some much value is being placed on going to the range.
But I can tell you that right now, your ego is probably in the driver's seat.
And if you read that last line and it really got you steamed up, it hit the nerve.
And by the way, there is nothing to be embarrassed about...nothing at all.
Everybody has a little child deep inside them. When that child is ignored, it acts out, throws a fit, makes up reasons to not go to the range, put unrealistic expectations on activities that are supposed to be pleasant. And when this little child presents itself to others, it looks like an inflated ego.
Once you understand how to put ego in the back seat and make him content there, things will start to have proper prospective.
People don't give other people much more than 2 seconds of thought.
Why? Because most of them are too busy thinking about themselves.
I can say this because, to varying degrees, I have been in your shoes.
Big ego, you bet. A real bad son of a biscuit. A real cocky one.
Yepper, been there, done that.
Until I had a college class mate shined a light onto that little child. Man, did that hurt. It hurt bad and I was so embarrassed. But part of that exposure was finding out that everyone is that way. The work comes in realizing it, recognizing it, and working on fixing it.
Forgiving yourself is key. Making the child content in the back seat is key.
Ego is tough to get under control and it can be painful. But once you realize it's holding you back from enjoying life, you are on the right track.
On of the best book I have ever read was titled, "Maximum Climbing" by Eric Hourst. Yes, it's about the world of rock climbing, but it talks nothing about technique or equipment. It deals totally with the muscle between the ears. Your mind, your thoughts, your self talk, and ego.
A must read...and not just once either.
I hope this helps.
I am not interested if anyone agrees or disagrees.
I offer it for your consideration.
BTW, that classmate made her case while sitting at my dining room table, with my wife and I. She single handedly saved our marriage. And after graduation, we never heard from her again.
God bless you and keep you C.K.